isolation

i think being as i am and a artist i have always surrounded my self with people and friends. im quite social and i love being that friend that says something silly and outrageous to make you laugh when your having a bad day. I've kept myself around people  that understand me to always  help me read things, or to know how i try to be overly independent with my low vision.  but on the other side of that coin ive realized that when it comes to creating i need utter and complete isolation, and i find it comforting.

unless im on my final state of a piece or working on a casting i find i get very self conscoius. Even in front of my own husband as if im in this very volunerable state  and i fear any comments til im done. Maybe its because my whole process is diffrent, i start in as much detail as i can ever possibly see then i begin the process of taking over my image in shadow. it never looks the way it started. and sure i could show the detailed  sketches i make but it is only me  faking the shadng that i cant see, and for me it wouldnt be real.

ive looked at me pieces over these past 6 months or so and said several times, i need more from this. Every artist get to some point when they dont want to stop  but begin to feel stale at the same time. So here i am workign on creating my own isolated space in this chaotic  apartment to go back to my basics and begin putting together all the tools and ingrediants i need for the new faze of my work. It feels amazing to finally look at it and have an answer to were i wanted it to go.

There is something wonderful about sitting in a quiet house alone and sketching and working on ideas and getting them worng,

every time this happens i get closer to where it needs to be. here i need to bring my ideas and works together to create one unified idea and set of works  and the beginning of the process is overwhelming and wonderful.

Aphrodite sketch